just the two of us.

seven more days little man, seven more days and your papas will be home for a good three and half weeks. i'll have to admit, the past five (will be six when papas come home) weeks have been pretty tough, but i know a lot of it has to do with the fact that you just miss your papas so much. never in my life have i been sooooo physically exhausted, but we both made it through. i learned a lot about myself as a mother and as a person. i think even though we had some fighting moments together, we bonded in a way i thought would ever happen. being a "single" mama isn't easy and i totally bow down to all you single mamas out there in the world (you too mama); you guys are some strong bad asses.

sweet bubbas. i hope you know that i love you with every inch of my heart, soul and body and i promise with time things will get better for the both us. it's going to be us for awhile; there may be somedays where you want nothing to do with me and thats okay, i'll give you your space. i know when you're ready for some mama loving, you'll come back to me. it's how we are and one thing i've realized with it just being us is....you're a carbon copy of me. that being said, there are certain things i know i need to do in order to make it peaceful between us. i promise to work on my patience as long as you promise to work on your fit throwing. haha. bottom line, i'm excited for what the future holds for us. i won't lie, i'm a tad bit nervous about how much "alone" time we're going to have, but i think our little team will get better over time. i love you, ronin.

the big boo boos.

welp. *sigh* one of the many things i feared happened yesterday afternoon. this kiddo had a pretty good fight with the table and sadly, the table won. the bench tipped over (wasn't pulled out all the way) and ronin felt forward, smacking his poor little face into the table. the bad news: ronin has a busted upper lip (a pretty bad one) and his left tooth shifted a little. ugh. the doctor told us that there will more than likely be some bruising on his tooth. aka: it can turn black. oh this child of mine. haha. the good news: he was back to his crazy happy self within minutes of the fall. (seriously though) he's seriously acting like NOTHING happened to him. how are kids sooooo resilient to things? how? i want that life again. haha. i was debating on canceling my plans this weekend, but ronin is 100% fine and i think seeing his other set of grandparents and cousin will make this kid even happier. plus, i think we both need a little 24 hour break, haha. it's been just US for FIVE WEEKS. have a great weekend you guys.

sleepy town.

please insert a thousand curse words here _____. hahaha. no, but really, bed time is such a battle now and days. ugh. this little cutie puts a GOOOOOD fight at night; even though he's flat out exhausted by 7:15. i have tried taking naps away, but that only leads to a super cranky and overtired toddler (he ends up waking up throughout the night). i have tried singing to him, wearing him out, etc etc etc - butttt nothing. this super defiant fighting behavior started around the same time we moved back in with my parents, micah leaving us and then him going to school - aka: sooo many changes for a little babe. i have decided to push ronin's bed time 30 minutes later than usual and sticking to a better bedtime routine. a good friend of mine also suggested i read sleepless in america and raising your spirited child. i plan on ordering these books...TONIGHT. ha. lets see what works for us. fingers crossed.